One of my resolutions for 2016 was to embrace what makes me happy. Another was to focus on a low maintenance beauty routine. I had planned on writing this really beautiful post about how I was implementing these things, how I had really embraced my wild hair and how I had sworn off makeup. But that hasn’t happened, and to be honest, I’m okay with that. Instead I’ve done quite the opposite. I’ve decided that 2016 will be the year that I continue bettering myself and becoming the woman that I want to be, whoever that may be at the moment.
My first step to embracing what makes me happy was going to be a hair makeover. I wanted to keep my long locks and balayage them, maybe even add some bangs! I wanted something new and fun. The foils come off, and I have super blonde highlights. My hairstylist totally pushed me away from bangs and gave me some light layers instead. I lost about three inches of dead hair. I loved it and hated it all at the same time because it looked nice, but it’s not the trendy hair that I wanted. I pulled out my straightener, which is something that I only use when my hair is at a weird length and I don’t know what else to do with it. I straightened my hair every day for over two weeks.
Because of the blonde highlights and my fair skin, I found myself applying makeup every morning. I don’t love the full coverage of my foundation, but I slapped it on anyway. I allowed myself to skip eyeliner, because I just really don’t love it. In fact, I only got into a habit of wearing it because all of the cool girls in middle school that I so desperately wanted to be like wore it… Middle school! I was letting something from middle school affect my beauty routine, and at almost 25, I said good riddance to that.
After two weeks of not feeling like myself, I had that weird “all is well” moment that I blogged about here. And as I walked home from that leadership training with my hair styled, make up on, fancy new coat from my dad and stepmom cinched around my waist, high heels clicking every step of the way, I felt chic. I felt professional. And I felt like I could take on the world. I decided that I wanted to feel like that every single day… That’s the woman that I want to be…. the woman that I was meant to be.
Following that was this beautiful moment where I found the balance. If I’m having a “good texture day” with my hair, I turn the straightener off. (The only good thing about losing my hair to chemo pills was that it grew back with this amazing, beachy wave texture!) I traded my foundation for a CC cream that lets my freckles shine through. And I’ve been feeling bold and confident enough to truly experiment with fashion instead of just wearing clothes.
Thanks for following along with me on my journey – both of updates on my 2016 Resolutions and updates on becoming the woman I was meant to be.
How are your resolutions coming along?