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Sunday, July 14, 2013

Confidence & Appearances

Throughout high school, I took a lot of pride in my appearance.  I got up each morning at 6:00 to shower, dry and straighten my long hair, and put on my makeup.  I laid out my outifts a week at a time and was voted best dressed my senior year.  I dabbled in modeling and had dreams of becoming a professional dancer.

The summer before my senior year, I was diagnosed with a chronic illness.  I lost over one fourth of my body weight, and any confidence that I had along with it.  I could no longer take studio dance, and I was so sickeningly skinny that I couldn't model.  An ULTA had just opened where I lived, so after a doctor appointment, my mom took me for a makeover.  It made such a difference!  Like any 17 year old girl, I wanted to feel pretty.  I may have been wearing kids jeans and sports bras, but at least my makeup looked good.

The summer before I started college, I became so confident in my appearance that I started to experiment with my looks.  Right before sorority recruitment, I chopped my long hair off (gasp!)  I started wearing a stick on nose stud.  I quickly realized that wasn't a good look for me.

At the beginning of my junior year, I was diagnosed with cancer.  I was left with a bad scar on my arm.  I became so insecure.  I had the surgery over my spring break, and while I was still high on pain killers, I had my hair died so dark that it was almost black.  Even when it got warm outside, I wore cardigans.  

I was no longer "put together."  I was thankful for the Norts & baggy t-shirt trend, because I didn't have to try anymore.  I had "go to" outfits.  My goal was no longer to stand out, but to blend in.

Today I decided that it was time - time for a makeover.  It may sound crazy, but I feel like a completely different person.  The lady that did my makeup was great.  I left with more confidence than I've had combined over the past two years.

I know that we live in a world obsessed with looks and being beautiful, and I try so hard not to get caught up in that and in outer beauty.  But I also have to remind myself that there is nothing wrong with feeling confident and putting pride in my appearance.  (After all, I am a southern woman!)

Hope everyone is having a great weekend!



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